To follow up - to document progress / diagnosis.
I continued to not be able to get on the bike for the rest of June, into July with most of the symptoms. I went to a cardiologist, a new GP, and a nutritionist. Turns out I had some kind of inflammation in my heart that may / may not have been related to a viral infection - like Epstein Barr. Oddly, that made me feel better to have a diagnosis. I am also seeing a nutritionist around my higher-than-should-be A1C levels and doing glucose sticks. Borderline A1C levels (pre-diabetes)
In the last month the bad thoughts went away, sleeping better, and have had some promising indoor rides (albeit at a lower intensity and FTP). I have yet to ride outside again since Memorial day. Combo of the heat, busy with work and life, and falling down the stairs right when I was feeling better and messing up my foot. doh!
Motivation hasn’t been great, but glad to be over most of the physcial/mental symptoms. My cardiologist doesn’t want me doing super high HR activity for the next 3 months, until I get a clear MRI. But I am weighing and evaluating exactly what that means.